He Always Proves Me Wrong
I can’t even begin to understand all the things I have gone through in my life, but I know God does and I trust Him, He gives my heart and life meaning now…….I can’t take credit for His Grace that sustains me daily, I would not be standing here if it weren’t for Jesus…..
God, I pray that You open up the eyes of our hearts to receive what You have for us today, Holy Spirit lead us, guide us, consume us, equip us….so…
When I say HE (GOD) proves me wrong I meant that HE proved me wrong in every single area and aspect of my life when I was suffering, or just plain dealing with life, when I was lost when I was hurting when I was addicted when I was depressed when I was suicidal HE proved me wrong, and when I thought that I was at the end of my rope and there was nothing else left for me to hold on to or to hope for or even care HE proved me wrong. Time and time again HE has proved me wrong, all my life up to the Point I surrendered my heart to Christ, EVERYTHING failed me, drugs failed me, lust in all its forms failed me, alcohol failed me relationships failed me even the love I thought I knew failed me!!! EVERYTHING in my life up to the point of finding and declaring Jesus as Lord over my life has failed me, but never once has my God failed me!!! HIS promises are eternal, HIS promises are enduring, HIS promises mean hope, HIS promises are healing, HIS love is healing, even HIS punishment is healing and loving and caring and kind because when I thought I knew what was best for me in my whole entire life… HE proved me wrong I now know and see HE knows what's best for me and even when I stumble HE is always there to catch me lift me up dust me off and tell me everything's OK, we just keep going keep resting keep trusting keep hoping keep praying. Because HE is El Roi the God who sees me, (WHO SEES YOU ALL TOO) who knows me better than I know myself, He knit me together in my mother’s womb, He knew and knows EVERYTHING I WILL EVER SAY, DO OR BE!!!! And even through all my mistakes, HE loves me, and I believe that in my mess is when He showed me, HE loves me best, because I know HE knows that I cannot do this life without HIM.
I am starting to understand more and more at a deeper level of what HE means when HE says, ““For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah 55:8-9)
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Because EVERYTHING I tried my own way just brought me more pain and unnecessary heartache, and I just kept digging myself a deeper hole, that I now see only HE pulled me out of, NOT ME, in my own strength, but HIM in all HIS Majesty and Power Might and LOVE….
That is why I believe it is very crucial that we are into His Word EVERY DAY filling our minds with HIS Truth and taking our thoughts captive to Christ. And putting on the full Armor of God EVERY DAY!!! Because, when we equip ourselves with the full armor of God, it guards us, guides us, leads us, protects us, and equips us, and strengthens us, in HIS strength enabling us to do what HE has called us to do.
We all will experience troubles, trials, tribulations in this life, that is why we need to stay anchored to the One who walks on water and calms every storm, even though our circumstances don’t immediately change, we can be assured that God never changes, we just got to hold onto the rope of hope, and persevere through the struggles, and trust that when we come out on the other side, we are closer in our intimacy and relationship with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, as well as closer to eternity with Him. WE have the Holy Spirit in us to do mighty and amazing things for GOD and His Kingdom, and while testing hardships and trials gets us all anxious and frustrated and all the testing’s we face, HE PROVES us wrong (again and again and again) because in His faithfulness He always will, and through it all we can and will gain more GOD-FIDENCE!!!!!!!
For God is our refuge and strength, our ever-present help in all our troubles. (Psalm 46:1-3)
For The Lord has set a table before us. We have no reason to fear our enemies.
Because if God is for us who can be against us???
God shows His Grace and goodness to us by providing chances for us to exercise our faith, He will ALWAYS provide us with everything we need as we seek to obey His Will for our lives. (CliffsNotes NLT, Recovery Bible)
And when my mind starts to doubt Him, I am learning to turn to when He was in the Garden of Gethsemane and the anguish, sorrow, immense grief and pain He felt, because He knew EXACTLY what He was headed into, AND HE STILL WENT FOR US ALL!!! WHY??? BECAUSE HE LOVES US SO MUCH!!!!!!! And then my problems don’t look so bad afterwards, and I know I will be with Him when He returns!!!
“Since we have been united with Him in His Death, we will also be raised to life as He was.” (Romans 6:5)
And we can manage our earthly lives better when we learn to be like Mary, she quietly treasured these things in her heart and often thought about them. (Luke 2:19) and we must learn to do the same, let’s ponder and meditate on His Word daily, to give us the strength to get through each trial and whatever life throws our way.
So, my journey of faith has been for naught, it was forged and sowed in loss, pain, heartbreak, addictions, grief, anger, hate, doubt, fear, frustration, unforgiveness, and bitterness, but ALL of this sown together, has brought me closer to the One who walked on water, and heals me every single step of my journey, it has its highs and lows, and I make mistakes, but I am leaning on and learning to keep my focus on the One who took the needle out of my arm and trust His will, way and purpose for my life, even when I stumble and make mistakes, He dusts me off and sets me back on His firm foundation…….
PRAYER
Dear El Shaddai, Strengthen US O Lord to rest in YOUR peace and to serve others with YOUR Grace today and all the days You bless us with, I ask YOU to please hide us more in YOU, less of us and more of YOU, reframe our thoughts when fear, anxiety, and doubts try to rise help us to trust and stay focused on your Steadfast PRESENCE!!! For we are redeemed and secure in YOUR Love. In the Mighty Name of Jesus, we Pray Amen.
