Unfailing (Copy)
But if we are filled with His Spirit, and motivated by our love for God and other people, no obstacle to recovery is too great to overcome, and no obstacle in life is too big. Writing about what He guides me to write is total therapy to my soul, reading His Scripture, and pondering what He has written flows into my eyes and slowly makes its way through my entire being, filling me with such pleasure and immense peace and comforting patience, that never fails to calm the silent storm within me; that at times like a ship on the sea crashing and crashing through waves and waves of the evil one trying to overturn my love and faith and trust in the One that unendingly keeps me from being capsized and from drowning in my sorrows.
He holds up my head high above the desolate seas of self-pity, anger, bitterness, sadness, and worthlessness that are a constant daily threat, that all-consuming death that the devil tries to strangle me with, the memories of the wrongs I've done tries creeping in and tried to poison my thoughts, to mar my emotions, to twist me into something I have long ran from but for a while succumbed to, and gave into the sinful nature of our natural state of the flesh we dwell in, the flesh that His only Son sacrificed Himself for us on the cross we all bear when I spoke the words deep from my heart and believe Jesus died for our sins, I was raised from the dead and accepted His Truth in my bones.
I was redeemed and saved solely by the grace and mercy of Our Savior, my sins forgiven. I am beyond thankful for Him and His Son, the peace I feel now flows through me like a river of happiness, the comfort of His love covers me like a blanket of stars I lie under on a cloudless night in the summertime, the heartaches He has extinguished from my soul is normally impossible for you to ever get over in this world after all the loss I have endured, but with Him miracles are real, miracles are Him, without Him, I would be lost in this violent sea of selfishness and hate, that seems to overcome so many in this beautiful world He created for us.
Writing about Him gives Him glory and in turn gives me peace and joy, all the burdens He takes from us if we willingly give it all to Him is a blessing in of itself and saves me from myself, from constant worry about tomorrow, So our only job if we allow Him is to focus on the day in which we are taking our breath, right now, this second, these pen strokes I now write. His Spirit fills me, His Presence comforts me, giving me hope, with the faith and trust I have in Him, hope for my eternity and hope in myself, hope truly in Him and His Son, thankfully and graciously I welcome Him forever in my soul, I love You and Your Sweet Son, I give my all to you, Thy Will be done.
(Amber Nicole Sharrai-Gallegos) May 19th 2023 (written while incarcerated)
